20 Weeks and counting.............

Twenty weeks have come and past. For Lauren, present day is a far cry from the endless trips to a "porcelain goddess" in which she has become acquaintance with. Oh, how I will surely not miss the phrase from Lauren," Baby, can you pull the car over......"haha. But with the morning sickness starting to subside a little and the appetite starting to "reinvent" itself, Lauren seems to be finally enjoying all the joys of pregnancy. I am sure that joy will soon become short lived when we hit about the 30 week mark..haha. She is starting to get a little bump......finally. Lauren said that she can feel the flutters, but unfortunately they are too small and mild for Daddy to feel. But to just see the excitement on Lauren's face after our "little one" gives a swift kick, is enough contentment for me at the moment. And so we have hit the "halfway mark" in this roller coaster journey known as pregnancy. Why do I feel the hills will become steeper and the turns will get a bit more loopier.haha. Sooo twenty weeks down and twenty more to go......and then its "Showtime."

Coming Attraction

We went to the doctor today and, to be quite honest, I had never been so nervous and scared in all my life. I was soo nervous and on pins/needles about this visit. What is so weird is that I am completely healthy. Everything is fine with me, everything is fine with Lauren. I wasn't the one who needed to see a doctor, neither was it really Lauren's "doctor" appointment. But I was still scared to death about this doctor visit....this was one that I had never gone through before. This was the mother of all appointments. We would found out if everything was going along as schedule, if everything was healthy, and of course we would find out if I would be going to a "Daddy-Daughter" dance one day, or if would I be seeing my son under those "Friday Night Lights". For a moment nothing else matter to me except this one tiny, small, routine doctor appointment. As Lauren and I sat there holding each others hand watching the monitor, and seeing the first image of our child....I suddenly felt a sense of relief. I counted two arms and two legs...heart was beating harder than ever. The nurse utter, "Strong and healthy baby.". My GOD, four words never brought me such relief and satisfaction in my life as those words did. Staring at the screen and seeing a fuzzy and distorted image, that was my child, never looked so beautiful to me. Suddenly the nurse said softly,"She is a real squirmier." Lauren and I looked at each other as to say "did she just say......." The nurse, knowing that she had let the "cat outta of the bag"....said three words that would forever change my life, " Its a Girl." Those words truly melted my heart.

As Lauren and I left the doctor's office, I took a moment to reflect on this blessing that GOD has bestowed upon our lives. And for one brief moment I shockingly said to myself, " I'm having a little girl.....I'm in deep deep doo doo." hahaha.

New Year 2009

So I am sure that 2009 will be the most interesting and challenging time of our life together. . I know that Lauren and I will bring a life into this world and do the best job as parents. I know that I will encounter many struggles and hard ache, but to know that I have Lauren and those around us that love us , makes me know that we will be just fine. 2008 brought many blessings in my life....I meet the woman of my dreams, I have grown as a individual, and I haven't lost any love ones(knock knock). But I began to understand that a New Year comes and goes, but I should live my life as its a "New Day" policy. I shouldn't wait for a New Year to make resolutions and change in my LIFE. Every day is a challenge and a struggle that we all must endure and overcome....but like Jack Dawson(dude from the Titanic) said,"You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count."

So here is to 2009, here is to the best of times and to the worse of times.....to the memorable times and the ones that I would like to forget. Here is to another year and to another chapter in my life that will come....as well as go.